Yet, my heart wants a different lifestyle! I have a heart to help others. I want to help build houses, shelters, churches and food banks. I want to go to Oklahoma even Africa to minister to people. I want to run and play soccer with children to see them laugh. I want to feel alive inside again.
So, what to do about it? The only person that has never let me down is God. He has walked me through heeling my relationship with my Mother. He has guided me to be a better parent, a better employee, a better wife. His word (the bible) has never left me with a void in my heart. So the obvious answer would be to turn to God. I have seen many miracles while fasting in years past. Through fasting; my son was saved, my sister was saved and started an entire new life by moving from Alabama to New York, I quit smoking after over 20 years - I just laid them down, and the best thing was when I received the baptism of the holy spirit. Now if those aren't testimonies of God's goodness then I dont know what is. The point is, God is the "secret ingredient" the "miracle pill" the "miracle diet" that I should have tried long ago. Not only will I be able to get my health back but the intimate connection it will give me to God will be amazing.
Yesterday I simply asked God to help me make better food choices. I didn't ask God to email me a meal and exercise plan, I just want God to guide me through each day. I want to be dependant on God verses food or the scale. I don't plan to get caught up in daily scale checks and get disappointed if I don't see what I feel it should be. I'm not going to allow the enemy to use those tactics to discourage me any longer. I want to simply pray and let the Lord lead me daily. Join the journey with me!
I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me!